Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in the one body. And be thankful.
– Colossians 3:14-15
I would have never believed you if you told me 2012 would end in harmony for me.
The past couple of years on or around Epiphany, a clergy covenant prayer group I am part of randomly draws a star with a word or spiritual gift written on the back of it. This ritual was introduced to us by the brilliant Aimee Moiso.
The word is not supposed to be magical, but it is to “guide” us into the New Year and perhaps help us to be aware of how that word is playing out in our lives. Some of the words include: honesty, love, justice, patience, etc. My word for 2012 was harmony.
I won’t lie, I felt disappointed. Nothing in my life felt harmonious at that time. I had just found out that the church I was then serving was going to have to let me go mid-year because they could no longer sustain the associate pastor position. I was sad about leaving a call before I felt ready to go. I felt nervous and skeptical about how I would find another call in this economy – when so many pastors are seeking positions and not finding them.
My personal life was also a bit shaky as a result, and I could not even see the possibility of harmony happening. My fitness track fell to the wayside. Harmony. I did not even want to hope for it. It felt unrealistic to want that word for my life.
One of my mom’s coined phrases to me growing up was, “Who knows? God knows.”
God truly works in mysterious ways. And just as I was settling into disappointment and living into uncertainty, everything began falling into place … harmoniously. Stone Church (which is in the same presbytery) just happened to be in the beginning stages of looking for an associate pastor.
Someone told someone else about my situation. Interviews happened. And then, not only was it an open position, it genuinely felt like a new calling.
Now that 2012 has come and gone, if you have talked to me or seen me, I hope that I am radiating harmony in my life. In fact, ever since I came to Stone Church, I wake up every day grateful and mystified at how beautifully everything worked out. I just signed up for my first half-marathon benefitting the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society and am getting my health back on track. http://pages.teamintraining.org/sj/sntacrzh13/pastorirene#home
I feel content right now being single and enjoying the life and health God has given to me.
I’m not saying my Epiphany star was magical, but now reflecting back on 2012 and looking toward 2013, I give thanks to God for the harmony that is ever so present in my life right now.
I look forward to what 2013 holds; thanks for joining me on the journey.